我曾经以为会最早把自己嫁出去的人   却悄悄地永远离开了
我曾经以为比谁都有可能直升大学的人   最后竟败给了现实与我们渐行渐远
我曾经以为永远不可能安定下来的人   却一声不吭捎来了红炸弹  说孩子下个月就要出生了
我曾经以为他是全世界最开朗乐观的人   但在命运的面前人类永远是渺小沮丧的
我曾经以为他是比谁都霸道的坏小孩   竟然对我说：都毕业了还不出去做工么？
我曾经很珍惜很关心的人   已经很久很久没有他的消息了
我曾经以为很快将要分开的人   现在还是默默地待在我身边
我曾经以为自己会走得很顺利   但事实证明我的历练还是不够
我曾经幻想自己可以做很多事情   而且我会把它们做得很好   但其实这只是我太自大的想法
那些曾经   似乎还是里我很靠近
那些人   那些事   好像每一天都在我们身边重复着动作
回望过去   那些光阴不是白过的  
我   你   他
我们都在长大   一直在学习怎样做人  
虽然我们会分开   但以后还会相遇
希望下一次看见对方时   你是微笑着的

sigh

emo...

don't know why i'm so suffer with the negative emotion

it won't go away

i can feel the depression keeps following me wherever i go, and whatever i do

he don't know my feeling

and they too

but i know myself very well

i know what i want

though this is not easy to make it

should i try first?

i got no idea...

i hate the way you talk

i love my family

but sometime

i hate them too

my youngest brother is such a brat

he is rude, hot temper, doesn't respect to the old people, indolent, selfish

and so much more

i can't list all of his shortcoming here

i know, he is sucks!

why he always acts in this way

and as usual, my mum and dad ignore all of his bad attitudes

i can't accept the way they treat their "lovely cute baby son" 

they just make things worse

he won't grow as a good guy

yet he will become an evil!

we will see...

new year wishes

It is the 4th day of chinese new year
but the atmosphere are quite normal
no more new year spirit here
seems like everyone had backed to their post
work and study, this is what we call life
we work to feed ourselves, and when you organized a family
you have to work so you able to feed them too
we study to ensure that we capable to find a job after we graduated
and the level of education decided your amount of salaries
it is a materialistic world, and it is the real life

what we gonna wish for in this new year?
wish for the world peace?
wish to get a better job?
wish for a windfall?
wish to have a healthy body?
different people have different kind of wishes
i just wish to be a good man, live a fun life, be sociable, study hard, be happy and healthy, always think positive, appreciate with what i own now, keep going with my ideal and dreams, and i hope that all the people i love stay well...

mum and dad, i love you
my dad is a perfect man for me, i wish nothing but the best for you
and my mum really work hard these few years, i wish she can be always in health
i am sorry if i hurt you or make you feel disappointed
i promise this time i will really stand tough and put effort on it
i will try my best, don't worry
very thank you for your comfort and encourage, i will grow stronger
i am no longer the little girl who always wish for your mercy
i am growing to be a woman, i will be more mature and strong soo