我曾经以为会最早把自己嫁出去的人   却悄悄地永远离开了
我曾经以为比谁都有可能直升大学的人   最后竟败给了现实与我们渐行渐远
我曾经以为永远不可能安定下来的人   却一声不吭捎来了红炸弹  说孩子下个月就要出生了
我曾经以为他是全世界最开朗乐观的人   但在命运的面前人类永远是渺小沮丧的
我曾经以为他是比谁都霸道的坏小孩   竟然对我说：都毕业了还不出去做工么？
我曾经很珍惜很关心的人   已经很久很久没有他的消息了
我曾经以为很快将要分开的人   现在还是默默地待在我身边
我曾经以为自己会走得很顺利   但事实证明我的历练还是不够
我曾经幻想自己可以做很多事情   而且我会把它们做得很好   但其实这只是我太自大的想法
那些曾经   似乎还是里我很靠近
那些人   那些事   好像每一天都在我们身边重复着动作
回望过去   那些光阴不是白过的  
我   你   他
我们都在长大   一直在学习怎样做人  
虽然我们会分开   但以后还会相遇
希望下一次看见对方时   你是微笑着的

sigh

emo...

don't know why i'm so suffer with the negative emotion

it won't go away

i can feel the depression keeps following me wherever i go, and whatever i do

he don't know my feeling

and they too

but i know myself very well

i know what i want

though this is not easy to make it

should i try first?

i got no idea...

i hate the way you talk

i love my family

but sometime

i hate them too

my youngest brother is such a brat

he is rude, hot temper, doesn't respect to the old people, indolent, selfish

and so much more

i can't list all of his shortcoming here

i know, he is sucks!

why he always acts in this way

and as usual, my mum and dad ignore all of his bad attitudes

i can't accept the way they treat their "lovely cute baby son" 

they just make things worse

he won't grow as a good guy

yet he will become an evil!

we will see...

new year wishes

It is the 4th day of chinese new year
but the atmosphere are quite normal
no more new year spirit here
seems like everyone had backed to their post
work and study, this is what we call life
we work to feed ourselves, and when you organized a family
you have to work so you able to feed them too
we study to ensure that we capable to find a job after we graduated
and the level of education decided your amount of salaries
it is a materialistic world, and it is the real life

what we gonna wish for in this new year?
wish for the world peace?
wish to get a better job?
wish for a windfall?
wish to have a healthy body?
different people have different kind of wishes
i just wish to be a good man, live a fun life, be sociable, study hard, be happy and healthy, always think positive, appreciate with what i own now, keep going with my ideal and dreams, and i hope that all the people i love stay well...

mum and dad, i love you
my dad is a perfect man for me, i wish nothing but the best for you
and my mum really work hard these few years, i wish she can be always in health
i am sorry if i hurt you or make you feel disappointed
i promise this time i will really stand tough and put effort on it
i will try my best, don't worry
very thank you for your comfort and encourage, i will grow stronger
i am no longer the little girl who always wish for your mercy
i am growing to be a woman, i will be more mature and strong soo

wow~it is 2012!

i got a lot of wishes in this new year!
i wanna put efforts on my studying
i wanna get flying color results
i wanna buy a guitar
i wanna learn how to play piano
i wanna throw all those bad things away
i wanna make sure i live my happy life
i wanna keep smiling
and i want to change my bf? 
aiyo~just kidding...not so easy you know!


i hope the person who i love stay happy and healthy
and the people who love me, please~tell me ok? LOL


2012 should be a very great year
don't simply give up when you face a frustration
don't easily look down on yourself because you are the precious one
don't rashly forget your purpose that you pursuing for so long time
this is your life
and it is your right to plan what you gonna do 
and what you wish to be in your whole life
when you fall down 
there are no use to think about your fault 
please appreciate what you have now
and you will feel that you are the lucky one to own all of this...


HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!
i love you all...

love is blank

maybe sometime i just need someone to stand by my side
it's harsh to stay alone
it's tough to stay strong
no matter who you are
i just wanna feel that you care about me


maybe sometime i just feel weak and i need a shoulder to cry on
then you are not around
i know you are not around
no matter who you are
i just want you to said you love me


i need you with me
at every moment i fall down

u r the Angel in my heart

2011 is the most capricious year for me
there were many things happened within this year
some make me felt pleasantly surprise
some really pull me down
some let me learnt a lot
some make me felt hesitate
i hate those feeling indeed
but i still have to say "THANK YOU" to 2011
"you" let me learn a lesson
nope
actually i learnt so many lesson
i should appreciate what i have now
i should enjoy my life
i should help people who need support


honestly, it is a tough year
i received the most terrible result i ever have
i'm seeing the scholarships pass off just in a trice
then i accept the news about my primary school classmate's wedding 
she is just 18 years old and now she is getting marry
and she is pregnant, she will get her first child born just one month after her wedding
it is definitely a good news!
she will begin to live a brand new life with her husband and her coming-son
and she is the first person who married in our class
we all feel happy for her


but 2 months later
my cousin, erm...i prefer to call her "friend", had a serious disease
it will leave sequela to her whole life
all of us don't expect that she will get sick
we feel sorry to see her ravaged by the illness
but we feel rejoice that she is getting well from sick now


then i sucess to transfer to Sam Tet
i don't even imagine that one day i will get in this school
though it is very exciting in the beginning cause this is one of the most excellent school in our state
but later on i can feel the pressure gradually increasing  
my year end result...still suck


and in this December
we lost our friend
every thing came so fast and gone rapidly
we don't even know before that she got cancer
i think she also don't realize that she will leave us in this way
it is sad
i can't accept that she had gone
i can't believe that we are not beside her when she faced her most difficult time
we are sorry, friend
you are the Angel in my heart 
and you always are
i'm not sure you believe or not
we always treat you like a friend
we know each other since we are in the primary school
we spent 10 years time in the same class until we graduated
and i thought we will be the friend of each other forever
however, we missed each other
hope that we will not missed again next time
R.I.P


i had went though those laborious moment
every thing will getting well soon
2012 is just around the corner
it will be a sweet year
i hope that everyone around me stay well
god bless me & you