pray to the god

ermm...life is still on but meaningless

coz i'm lost~dont know what's my objective of study

but i had decided to continue my study in f6

dont want to think too much

i'm gonna take it easy so no complicated things keep trouble me

xin is sicked...

we can do nothings...

dont know what the problem is

her body is very weak now

she's too skinny till we're not bear to see her like that

everything will be ok

we keeps convince ourselves

keeps pray for her

just imagine that it's a tough test for her

the test of life

when she recover we'll have a steamboat party for her

i'm glad to hear that she's wondering to have steamboat when we got to visit her yesterday

that means she got appetite to eat

then it's freakin good

she need to eat more and more

healthy is treasure, it's true

i'm lucky coz i have a healthy body

dont worry, friend

she'll recover soon

and live well, guys

no more negative emotion

although i'm still not very sure about what i really wanted to be 
but everything will be gradually clear with time
grab the opportunity when it appear
dont miss the chance to be success 
i know what is the most suitable stuff for me
but i'm still be lost cause dont know the way to go
everything will getting well, for sure
just do what u like n dont be a nerd
god is always be with u

人生的问题

我很诚实地告诉大家
我真的快疯了
就像一根快断掉的橡皮筋
我每一天的日子都好难过
我想   我真的要得忧郁症了
每天的心情都很低落
请不要怀疑   我最近真的在失眠了
我无法入睡   一闭上眼思绪就很混乱
所以每晚睡前都喝牛奶
但只有第一个晚上起了作用
接下来那几晚我还是睡不着
我吃不下饭   真的一点胃口都没有
早餐只喝了一杯咖啡
午餐整3点多才吃    偶尔也没吃
晚餐两口饭就饱了   看到鱼和肉也觉得很恶心
我还发神经地狂拉筋跳舞
想说留点汗可以精神点
想一想还是觉得我很奇怪
但是很高兴   3天都不用就瘦了两公斤
我妈可是跑了整个月的步才瘦了半公斤
真的想了好多好多
开始觉得人生很可笑
可以让它重来么
如果可以的话我会重新好好地活着
我不懂烦恼从何而来
成长真的是青春的毒药
我每天都好担心
不知道自己的路该怎么走
不知道自己可以做些什么
不知道自己喜欢些什么
不知道自己适合些什么
我想成为更好的人
我想让自己更有自信
至少能让我觉得自己其实很珍贵
但是最近全都乱了
我开始觉得自己很没用
我告诉自己千万不要好高骛远
简简单单地也可以很快乐
但是我的梦想要怎么办呢
我想尝试我一直以来都想做却没有机会做的事情
你们可以接受那样叛逆的我么
书其实我也想好好念
但你知道我并没有很喜欢
那些所谓的志愿也只是说给你听听而已
其实我根本不想去实现他
让我好好想一想   我到底能做些什么
钱真的是一个问题
我会自己努力一点一点地存起来
你们不用担心

我的心情很难懂

请你也体谅一下我的心情好么？
你说的抱歉里没有灵魂
那只是你耍嘴皮说出来让我难受的话而已
现在的我是什么情况你应该很清楚
我没有了主导权
弱者都是这样的
我必须很努力地把失去的东西找回来
你可以理解我的难处么？
如果连这么简单的事情你都没办法做到
那你还想我怎么办？
谁抛弃了谁只是迟早的事
没办法好好相处那说什么也没用
若要是豁出去了
那你在那儿等着
我先死给你看
不必你这么痛苦
委屈一下自己又有什么问题
我无所谓
可是你都不行
公平这种东西很无耻
随便你要怎么想
我要安静
请让我一个人好不好
谢谢

thks god

i got so much negative emotions recently
but i believe that i'll getting better gradually
it's no use to blame urself when u had make a mistake
there's no help for the miss
honestly i became so sensitive these few days
i'm easily to lose my temper
i know that i should not act so barbaric
but pls forgive me ya especially my hubby
i'll be a better man
study hard n hard
concentrate to the thgs that i decided to do n make it perfect
god bless me pls...