i can do it

hmmm...>>>holiday mode on<<<
i'm always convince myself that study is a very fun thing to do
and i keep hypnotise myself to move on with that
i know i have to be more confidence with myself
no lost no gain, no failure no success...
i knew it a long time ago and everyone know it too
but the problem is how we go on with this manner??
it's totally a different thing between planning and execution
i hope i can be more courageous and decisive when doing anything


i always admired them who can completed the work by their own without any obvious defect
and they are so confidence to themselves but not arrogant
i wish to be this kind of person
they able to produce excellent work and integrate into the community leisurely 
maybe it's a easy thing for me to play fun and tell jokes with my friends
but it's really hard for me to talk pleasure with the stranger or a just-know person


a brand new life in Form 6
i have to change myself to become a person who have competitive ability 
this is the basic condition to success
i need much audacity 
accept the defeat and make some changes
i'm gonna drill myself to become stronger and more firm 
whatever challenge and frustration for me are just an ordeal
an ordeal to gain my achievement 
and make my dreams come true

i love bad guy

it's a very short post
i just want to throw out all my feelings right now
ur attitude really make me felt speechless
how i talk kindly to u?
dont u ever try to guess what i'm thinking about
i'm really sick now
i want to stay at home
i want to study
can u understand what i need now?
u r a good man
but sorry, i love bad guy...

peace pls

i'm super duper bridle right now
sometime i think i need to be alone
no matter who u r or what emergency incident happened
no ones can force me to do something
i love to be alone n i enjoy it as well
why u r keep forcing me?
i'm sure that i had clearly conveyed to u what my feelings n thought
in fact i hate the way u talk to me
u r so rude n impatient every time we talking about this issue
if so i think we rather don't have a meet
i can just keep ur best side n appearance in my mind
i don't want to spoil it u know
people saw u and told about that u r getting good now 
but they just judge u by ur semblance but not ur innermost being
i know they're nobody perfect in the world including me
but i wish to be a good man 
i try to neglect all of ur deflect n bad habits
and i try my best to make every effort on accommodate u
same with what u had done for me
unfortunately all my intension r not very effective
so how? i got no idea what the problem is every time we argue in this way
i like to be free
there're much more freedom here without u
i'm sorry to say that
but i'm this kind of person
i'm not selfish but i'm just have my own belief
u don't need to follow all my ideas but u should respect it
just like the way i respect u in this long time

live a happy life

freakin busy and exhausted in these 2 weeks since the class had started
i'm trying to convince myself that studying is a very fun and interesting thing to do
yeah~we should always think positive
depression is a very hard thing to solve
i saw some people who have emotional problems usually trapped themselves
they unable to walk out of the dim haze and keep wandering at the same place
what's the problem actually?
we're human being, so we'll make mistake
don't be so concentrate to the mistaken
when u are success in the future, nobody will ask u about ur past
drugs can't make u feel free and relaxes
they'll just help you to stabilize your emotion
besides, what else???
you'll just get the side effect of those fucking drugs
so what i'm gonna to say is don't leave yourself become depressed
every question have their way to solve
no matter how good or powerful you are
finally you'll reach to the side of the God
you unable to bring along whatever when u leave
pls think~~think how to live happier and meaningful
you'll find that every single thing in the world have their own beauty and merit
God love us as we love her the same...

form 6 life start

study life had started a week already

but i'm still outside the state 

holiday mood still cant off

every things seem tough and unfamiliar for me

form 6 is not as easier as u think

class will start next week

but i'm not ready yet

i'm gonna force myself to strive

what i want to do in my future is gradually clear in my mind

i know which field is suitable for me

and i discovered that what kind of job can make me feels comfortable and pleased to do it

i have a dream

as everybody does

kinda messy now

but i still have time to get myself ready for it

study hard in this one and half years

when u achieve what u has been desire for in this long time

every single of ur hardworking and sacrifice will gone away

i start to believe in this since i saw the peoples around me become success 

they are amazing 

nothings come without efforts

ya...i have a dream

will it come true?

i dont want to be good

but i want to be the best!

yumcha~:)

eric them come to kg timah to visit xin last night
how sweet we are~we had bought a box of bird nest for her
she should have some tonic as her body bacame very weak after a serious illness
and she have to eat more and more~she looks like a "paper people" now...she's too skinny
yi khey had back from genting highland~she come to visit xin too with yip
we keep chating with xin till 12:00am then we went to kampar yumcha
it had been a very long time we dont go out together at night
we go fetch lit at tg tualang first~he's always make people feel speechless-,-
then we go to mamak stall for a tea~chat so much with them at there
back at 2:00am...it's so tired for me cause i had make myself accustomed to sleep early in this long holidays
i sleep at 11:30pm++ every night~hmmm~such a good kid huh~:)
have a good time with my dear friend
honestly we wont have much time to gather for a tea like tonight cause our school will start from next week
eric and yip also will go to study college in ipoh next month
sigh...gonna concentrate to my study now...this is the last chance for me
i'll strive to get what i want!